I wanna get myself close to you

Saturday, July 26, 2008

I am suppose to go for Canoe time trial now.
But something is holding me back.
What is it?
The fear.
Of?
The fact that I have not tried a T1 before and now,
imagine I have to go for time trial on that boat.
I will definitely capsize.
Who does not capsize for the first time they try?
Yes, I know.
I know I will capsize for the first time I try T1.
But not during a time trial when everyone has at least tried rowing on that boat before when I did not.
Definitely there will be someone out there whom is going to capsize later right?
But that is nothing compared to me, someone whom have not even try T1 before.
I do not want to do a test when I have not even pick up that book to study for that test.
That is the fear.

*You can't kick me down I'm already on the ground
No you can't cause you couldn't catch me anyhow
Blue skies but the sun isn't coming out no
Today it's like I'm under a heavy cloud*

7:59 AM